Vin Diesel's Blurty

Subject:	Farewell.
Time:	7:33 pm.

I'm sure people have noticed, but, I haven't been to active around here.

I've been far too busy filming my latest movie, Chronicles of Riddick, and truth be told, I think I'd just rather prefer to back away from a bit, enjoy my life as it is. I've met many great people here, and I will be keeping in touch, watch your voicemail.

Paul, Jordana, I'll see you guys soon, mark my words. Paul, maybe see you in Toronto?

It's just my time to go, and it was fun keeping a journal while it lasted. But now, I have a wonderous career, a beautiful girlfriend, Laetitia, who I couldn't be more proud of, and...just a great life.

With that, I am out. Farewell.

[OOC Note: I want to thank everyone here, the old TPL writers and the new CS ones. TPL was the first role play I ever joined, and Vin was the first role I ever played. I'm real sad to see him go, but I've got priorities at my role play that I run, and just...it's time to retire the role. Have fun you all, and for now, I'm still staying here as Colin Farrell. It's been real. - Jasmine]

[This post is cross posted in the community journal as well so they know I'm leaving.]

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Subject:	Two paths...which do you choose?
Time:	10:46 pm.

Everything with her was going perfect. I felt she was beginning to trust me, I was beginning to fall for her, and I made it known that I liked her.

And then she comes back, and we talk, and I feel just like I did when we were going out, because nothing's changed, and I can easily fall back into that routine.

Then with her, she kisses me, and I can't be fully with her anyone, because she came back, and I'm torn.

Of course, more drama - she comes to visit me, and it's so easy and light and just like it was...

Now I'm at the two paths, and one leads to a future involving my past, and one leads to a future involving my present...

I have a feeling I know which road I am going to take.

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Subject:	I apologize
Time:	1:46 pm.

I'm sorry, I haven't been around much at all lately.

Honestly, I just needed some time to myself. Everywhere around me I've been by so many people, and with filming coming up...I just needed a break.

So I've basically been in hiding the past week, just trying to recenter myself so I can go into Riddick feeling refreshed and just doing the role like I know how.

I just needed time.

And now I'm refreshed, I'm back, ready to start being more social. I should really talk to people more, heh.

I'll be on AIM for much of tonight I'm pretty sure, don't see what I have to do other then that.

However, I will be gone pretty much Thursday, tomorrow and maybe most of Friday. I've got to run some errands and do a bunch of shit I've put off for the past few days, so I'm going to catch up then and just finish relaxing today.

I've come to realize there's pretty much no point to this entry. Let me make one -

Laetitia, I've missed talking to you. Will try to catch up with you soon.

Meredith - Next time I'm in Florida...which, honestly, I can't remember going to really, I'll look you up.

Paul - Call me, I'm always willing to help you with whatever. Regardless of films, we're still a team, we're still partners.

Jordana - I've heard and seen bits and pieces, and now I feel we need to talk. You know I'm here for you.

I think that's all...I'm not really sure. Ah well.

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Subject:	Are my friends human?
Time:	11:23 pm.

I really don't fucking think so.

I was just sitting at home, chilling because yes, I'm very tired, and I get this phone call from one of my friends. She's acting insanely stupid, to be perfectly frank, and she was flipping out. I asked her what was wrong...

She was watching Pitch Black.

Apparently, the WB played it tonight and she watched it for the first time, and yet, still, got insanely freaked out by my voice. You bet I teased the fuck out of her. I was laughing my ass off.

But now, she's still teasing me. "All you people are so scared of me... " she joked (that's one of my lines), and then she said directly after, "Because your voice is fucking scary!"

Friends...what would I do without them treating me normally?

In true Riddick form, I will sign out by saying:

"You're not afraid of the dark, are you?"

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Subject:	Stuck
Time:	11:01 pm.

I'm trying to figure out just where I'm going, but in reality, I don't know.

I've been training for Riddick. It's been amazing. Back to Yoga, and that was real fun. I loved doing the cat like movements that Riddick has to do and just being in great shape. It's rather nice to be able to do stuff you can't always do easily when you're out of shape.

I apologize that I haven't been talking to people lately, I've been rather busy and unwilling to get on AIM. Comment though, and I'll talk to you, *laughs*. I'll get on AIM soon though, I promise.

Sleep is what I need right now. Trainings tiring as fuck, I've been up really all day into the next, and then I repeat the same schedule. So, I will not try and get at least 4-5 hours of sleep, then back up for training.

Ah, the life of an actor.

I wouldn't change it for anything else.

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Subject:	Last night
Time:	2:41 pm.

I had a wonderful time with Laetitia last night. Had to be one of the only times in awhile that I've truly had fun having a bite to eat with someone. Where did we go, you might ask?

Not Spago, not Wolfgang Puck's place, a quite simple place that is one of my favorites - In N Out.

That's right, we went to In N Out. It was her idea, which surprised me, because honestly I thought she would have thought of someplace fancier since last time we went out was to a French (I think) Cafe. But I liked this, it was a nice surprise and I really enjoyed it. I think I already said that.

I found out some interesting quirks about her, surprisingly some that I had in common with her. She mentioned getting a shake, and I found out that she likes to dip her fries in shakes, then eat them. Yes, I do that too. Um, we talked about just normal stuff about our careers, but that wasn't the main focus, which was nice. She asked if I wanted to go to one of her fashion shows and I said sure, but for her, the other models on the runway don't really interest me. I'm sure their nice girls and all, but sitting still and watching some people I don't even know prance down a runway wearing some clothes that they wouldn't normally wear doesn't really interest me.

Now take me to a Sports Illustrated photoshoot...what? I am a guy afterall. Girls + Bikinis, it's only expected. Especially if they have a nice...let me just stop there.

Had a talk with Paul, it was nice actually talking to him again like we did on set. I never realized just how much I had wanted to do the sequel to F&F, and that I did miss hanging with the same people that I knew before this "fame" hit. Honestly, if given the chance, I probably would now try and get the people from xXx to push it back more, so I could film 2F2F. I've come to realize that the few true friendships you make in Hollywood, you've got to keep.

So, I suppose I'll work on that. What harm could it do?

By the way - thanks Ali for the 22 icons! I changed the 3 (haha) I had earlier and am now using 6 new ones. I felt so vain selecting which are the better ones for me to use.

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Subject:	Somethings happening
Time:	9:09 pm.

Now okay, here I go, completely dateless for awhile, and all of a sudden I'm meeting girls whose company I actually enjoy.

So okay yeah, I had that girlfriend...*rolls eyes* We won't go there. I can't honestly believe that I even asked her out. What was I thinking? Have I learned nothing since this sudden fame came over me? Do not date girls who are after your fame or money. And what do I do? Pick up the first girl that comes by. Smart Vin, smart Vin.

Then I come on here. After the whole fiasco with Jordana & Paul that I never wish to go into again, I meet up with Ali, and she's a pretty awesome girl. Then I meet Laetitia, now she, is very interesting. I met her because she said she hated men. Now determined to prove her wrong, I started talking to her. We ended up going out to get something to eat a few days ago and she is a very awesome girl. I think we went to some french place, I don't know, I wasn't paying attention. Our conversation was real nice, and it was nice to be talking to someone who knew how your life went, even if it was just a little degree. I'd like to see her again, that would be good.

When I came back online later, I met Meredith and Lucy. Lucy, Lucy Woodward is a cool girl. I just picked up her album the other day, very nice. I picked it up with Meredith's (I was with a friend, alright? My friends into girl singers, so I let her choose my music for once.) and I'm happy with both. Meredith is Meredith Edwards, by the way. She's a country singer.

Meredith is pretty good. I like some of her stuff, and I would definitely listen to some of the songs again. She's a pretty cool girl as well. I guess she's coming into LA to do some stuff for her manager or something, so we might meet up and grab something to drink or something like that.

And a certain blonde songtress who I won't name (but very much knows who she is) has let it fly that Trish has a bit of a liking of me? Interesting, but I have to admit I know the name, but I wasn't even sure what she did at first. A wrestler? Wow.

And thanks to those who commented - I forgot who, but I'll go read your journals and see what you guys are up to. :)

I need to make new icons, mine are bugging me. Blah.

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Subject:	I'm upset now.
Time:	11:21 pm.

No, I'm not just upset. I'm fucking pissed.

I'm sick of people calling me some dumb fucking action star. I decided to search the net today cause I'm researching for my upcoming film Hannbal the Conqueror, and I made the mistake of taking a break and just searching the web. I see this website that shows basically my whole profile. By that I mean all my work and stuff, what I've done, and these people on here that act like they know me, they don't know shit. Saying I'm this big dumb action star who basically doesn't know a pee from a tomato. Whatever.

Oh well. Then somehow, I got on a site that was for Michelle, about her, and they had some quotes that she said. She's such a great girl, reading that site and her responses, and what I actually said in retaliation was just funny and nice to think back on.

I don't remember it very clearly, but I know it happened - a reporter asked us if we've had sex, and Michelle replied something like that even if we had, she wouldn't tell them, and they asked me, but I forgot what I said. I love that girl because she complimented me very nicely, and naturally I'm human and love compliments when I'm feeling shitty. I think she said that she thought I was going to be stupid, but that I was actually very smart and some other stuff but yeah, that made me feel good.

Then she goes on to say when asked if we called each other after meeting for the first time, that we didn't, cause both of our egos are too big. Haha. My ego isn't...well it isn't that big. I suppose everyone has a bit of an ego, I'm no exception.

Pre-production for Riddick is going great. I'm so excited for this project. It's going to be fucking bad as hell, especially for the people who thought Pitch Black was good. Now I'm glad I basically begged my ass off to do a screen test for Riddick, he's become one of my favorite characters to be.

My eyes are drooping - bye.

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Subject:	Just thinking
Time:	1:16 pm.
Mood:	mellow.

I've been thinking of my future projects these past few days.

Chronicles of Riddick starts filming in June. I'm really excited, it's something I've wanted to do since Pitch Black finished filming. The character is just so intense, so great of a character to play.

We're still talking about Hannibal, and no, that's not a remake of the Anthony Hopkins movie, I don't want to eat any brains! It's a historical film basically, I don't want to give too much away. It'll be around an 18 month project though, it's going to be huge. I don't know where I'm going to fit that in.

I'm also looking to make Guys And Dolls, that would be amazing. I absolutely love that musical, and I would really like to see it on the silver screen. Chicago made it, so did Moulin Rouge, so Guys And Dolls has a chance. I don't think people give musicals enough credit, because they're really excellant.

Just been thinking a lot lately, reviewing my options. The studio's already picked up XXX2, and there's already talk of XXX3. I love my character, but I don't want him to be a joke though. As long as theres enough time between the movies, not every year like some trilogys, then I suppose I'll be fine.

There's also talk of a sequel to A Man Apart. I guess this is the life, hmm? People wanting you to do sequels of everything, can't I just do a new film? But I guess this shows that I've "made it"...but I'm going to be type cast, aren't I?

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Subject:	A few comments.
Time:	10:37 pm.
Mood:	frustrated.

Let me just tell some people who think everything I say is about them: it's not.

I had an absolute horrible day yesterday, and although I did lie and say I did other stuff yesterday, I didn't.

I'm not ready to say what exactly happened yesterday. I want to sort it out in my own head and make some sense out of it. But let me just say to a few certain people I was talking to today...you guys are my family. You guys are my friends. But don't assume everything I say has to do with our current situation, it doesn't. I have a life outside you guys you know, and stuff goes on in it that you don't know about just like life goes on for you guys that I don't know about.

You two be happy, do whatever you want. I don't fucking care what you do. Honestly, I don't. I will be happy for you two no matter what, and I will always be there. So quit assuming that I'll care or be hurt by whatever you do. I won't.

I have my own shit to sort out before I can fully give myself to another girl.

By the way, shout out to my girl Ali whose going through some frustrating times - hope you feel good soon girl, I'm here for you.

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Subject:	Last night.
Time:	8:59 pm.
Mood:	okay.

Last night, I was extremely drunk.

Unfortunately, when I get drunk, I also get very bitter.

So I retract everything that was said last night. Just forget it, it doesn't mean anything.

Did more work on The Chronicles of Riddick today. It's getting VERY interesting and I can't wait to work each day.

You know, I've got a huge headache right now. Don't go through meetings for important stuff while hung over, and don't have a long day. It's killer.

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Subject:	I can't win.
Time:	11:28 pm.
Mood:	sad.

So now Paul and Jordana are probably going to hook up. I really can't win, can I?

I wish I had a girl that was, I don't know really. I guess I just wish I had a girl who liked me for me.

You can always tell when a girl is just into you because you're in the movies. Quoting that guy from the Real World, whose reunion I saw last night (do not ask me why I was watching that, it was late, I was bored, nothing else was on...), and he says that you can tell when they go, "you were on TV? REALLY?" Yes, I completely agree with that, and I'm sure many of you other celebrities can agree with that.

Production of The Chronicles of Riddick are in full swing. If you don't know, that's the "sequel" to Pitch Black. I'm pretty excited since Pitch Black didn't get as much publicity in the US as this film probably will. It seems now that every assumes I'm some macho guy, that this will probably consist of a ton of explosions. I don't think they realize a lot of this is sci-fi, which I love.

Something made me laugh the other day. I was reading an interview of mine on AOL, trying to see how much of an ass they made me look like (not to bad actually, they didn't change too many of my words), and I remember how they asked me if I'm buff all the time. Honestly people, what am I, just biceps to some people? Reminds me of when Ste made the comment that my biceps are bigger then his head. Probably.

They said my answer was that I never know what role I'm going to be doing next, which is true, and that I don't know if I have to be bulimic or emancipated or what. Now I don't believe I ever mentioned being emancipated in that sentence, but I remember bulimic. Oh well, I don't remember much of what I say.

I heard that song "Girlfriend" from that group B2K. I thought that group NSYNC sung Girlfriend? Either way, I liked the lines, "I need a girllllllllfffriendddddddddddd." I hear you boys.

I'm pushing 40, well, in 4 1/2 years, and I have no love outlook. I'm going to die alone, only remembered for my biceps.

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Subject:	Sigh
Time:	11:41 pm.
Mood:	sad.
Music:	Brooke Allison - I Miss You.

So apparently Jordana & Nick aren't getting back together.

And it's hard, because I'm trying to be there for her, but I like her, you know? She's hot, she's amazing, she's such a beautiful person...I probably shouldn't have put hot first, makes me look bad hmm?

My interview with EW is on AOL. I sound like a workaholic, which I am, but yeah.

I offered Jordana my place if she wanted to come over if she needed to talk. She told me she might take me up on that offer.

Why is it so hard to be a friend to someone, when you battle feelings for them?

But if that's all I can have from her, then that's all I will have. I'll glady take friendship over nothing.

I just wish there was more...

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Subject:	Well damn.
Time:	5:56 pm.
Mood:	confused.

Well, I was shot down by Jordana. Oh well, I know she's recovering from that ass Carter, but you know, a guy can try.

And to make matters worse she told me she liked me on the set of Fast & Furious. What a joke, it's like, you tell me you liked me then now? After filming? She said she didn't want to date and work together, which I understand, but it's still unsettling. To think I could have had a great girl like her over the last floozy I dated is hard to think about.

And if we had started dating then I could have stopped her from dating Nick. Oh well.

I guess if we're meant to be, we'll end up together, right?

Rachel asked if I wanted to go out for drinks later, I said I didn't know. Should it feel wrong that if I go with her, it's like I'm betraying Jordana? Jordana and I have nothing but friendship, but she knows I like her...so if I like her, should I go and have drinks with Rachel?

Wow, maybe I am getting soft. Maybe I should just go out to the other end of LA and fuck half of Manchester Ave. For those of you who aren't from LA, Manchester is basically hooker street.

I tried calling Mom to see what she thought - she wasn't home. Oh well. Any thoughts?

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Subject:	Interesting
Time:	4:41 pm.
Mood:	thoughtful.

Talking to everyone here has just been great.

Zdenka flirted, that was interesting. She's a porn star, that could be very interesting.

Ste and I argued, he insulted my nose and said he could beat me up with a trout. I think not. I could crush his skinny boy band bones in a second flat.

Carmen R...she is hot. So is Rachel LC.

Jordana Jordana Jordana...that's my girl man. I've missed her since we stopped filming, haven't seen her around lately. I heard from her that her and Carter broke up. He's just a pop pansy anyway. I told Jordana I'd send her flowers tomorrow, and I'm going to send her a few different kinds to. I told her about my breakup and she asked if there was anything she could do, so I hinted about her being with me. I don't think she got it cause she thought I wanted casual sex.

Sure I want casual sex, but she's different. Maybe it's a tad wrong considering I know her from playing her damn brother in a film, but I'd be lying if I said she wasn't hot, or I wasn't attracted to her, cause I definitely am.

However, she's still getting over Carter and there's no way in hell that I'm going to be a rebound guy. No fucken way.

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Subject:	So, hello.
Time:	11:24 am.
Mood:	confused.
Music:	Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror.

Let me just say now that this journal layout is girly as all fuck. I'll change it in a bit, I just want to get everything situated and cleared up and everything.

So, hello. My names Vin, call me that, and nothing else. I don't care what you heard in the Enquirer, Star Magazine, People, do not under any circumstances call me Mark. You do not know Mark, you do not have the privledge of calling me Mark. The name, is Vin.

I've been lined up to star in the sequel to xXx. So that takes up a lot of my 2004 year. We're working on the script to Pitch Black 2, I'm really excited about filming that. As far as I know, filming of that will be in late 2003. I am not sure yet, and besides, they always decide to change the schedules because of funding or whatever, they don't give a rats ass for the actors. They expect us to just drop whatever we are doing to attend to filming this movie. And if we have something already planned when they decide to push the movie back - if we drop one, we're in danger of getting sued. See how ridiculous it is to be an actor? Crazy. That's why I've been real careful to schedule about a month's break between each film. At least that cuts down on most of the scheduling conflicts, although I rarely get time for myself. Those months are usually used as promotional months or months where I have to attend every single fucking fundraiser in Hollywood and Los Angeles.

Sometimes, I want to give it all up.

But I've worked so hard, and I'll be damned if I won't enjoy this new fame while I have it.

Besides, I'm Vin Diesel, Mr. Tough Guy, I'm not allowed to have feelings, I'm just allowed to blow stuff up.

What a coincident with the song I'm listening to. Hmm.

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